Instead of a regular post, I thought I'll switch the shit up and just put a bunch of random shit in one.
1. Sometimes, I feel like shit that I keep this big ass secret from my dad. He is a single parent (widowed), and we are very close. He knows there is something up with me. I'm sure he has no real clue about my sexuality, but every time something is wrong with me and I'm going through some shit about this lifestyle, he always asks whats wrong. And I can tell he gets upset that I don't open up completely. I was a child that got everything I needed, and most of what I wanted. So its a little guilt trippy....
2. I base damn near everything I do on rules of karma and the universe. No, I'm not one of those crazy hippie tree hugging muhfuckas. I just believe that what you put out into the world, you can't get anymore back. Seriously, does anybody deserve any good if they haven't released any good into the universe? Do you think you are going to go to the dealership and buy a new BMW with $5,000? Fuck no. Not only is karma a bitch, but a raging bitch.
3.The homie Cogito gave me a good idea. I want to fuck while high, and I want to fuck a latino. He suggested I get a latino high and fuck him like that...killing two birds with one stone. #Genius
4. In my last post I wrote about Sly. We have yet to have sex, and I want this cute muhfucka to fuck me. Seriously, how many times can you kiss and hold somebody you are attracted to and have feelings for without something going down. Like I stated before, I believe my head game should be in a museum...it seems like a waste if I can't at least give him that. LoL
5. I believe bisexuality is beautiful. Not just because the shit represents my life, but it represents this freedom and sensuality that can't be obtained any other way. I'm not saying everyone is, or should be, bisexual but those who are are mighty lucky. LoL
6. Honesty is very important to me...especially in a relationship. If the shit is going to hurt my feelings or mak me upset, so be it. I would rather be aware of the problem and work on it, than to be blind on the subject and have the shit blow up in the future. I don't believe infidelity is means for automatic termination of a relationship. Physical cheating is caused my lust and seduction; things that can be worked on. I won't be happy, and we'll have one hell of a time through it. However, if you begin to fall in love with somebody else and give your heart away...its time to call the shit quits.
7. Mehcad Brooks is one fine ass man. I would probably come out for this muhfucka. LoL Enjoy:
I don't know man physical cheating is pretty bad to me, not as bad as falling in love with someone but the thought of someone I'm involved with giving their body to someone and pleasing someone else and letting someone else please them would be pretty hard for me to get over.
ReplyDeleteI have pretty strong feelings about infidelity. I do believe what people constitute as cheating as a measure for breaking up is in fact proportionate to how much they themselves want to cheat or what the consequences are for themselves should they cheat. Cheating is a choice someone knows is wrong and does anyway. It's not a mistake like spilling a glass of milk on the table because you weren't paying attention. I wholeheartedly believe that if they cheat on you once... they will do it again. I've seen it time and time again. And when it happens again... we can't get upset.... because we've set the standard that they can knowingly do wrong and we'll still be there.
ReplyDeleteI'm not saying that I'm okay with cheating. However, sometimes it is indeed an isolated incident. And like ReclusiveOne, it will be damn hard to get over. But if the person is genuinely remoresful and completely honest about the situation, the relationship deserves an attempt to make it work.
ReplyDeleteAnd that's where we differ lol. I would hate to set a standard that if he cheats and says he's sorry that ill still be there. Or have to worry about if the next phone call that he takes in the other room is some bytch. He can remorseful all he wants but I believe in consequences for actions done with full knowledge that they're wrong. I'm not saying i'd cut his penis off... but I'm not answering his phone calls ever again either.
ReplyDeleteK, first of all, when I saw this pic of Mechad Brooks in my Google Reader, I damn near dropped my phone! He's the reason I started watching Desperate Housewives, The Game, AND True Blood. His GQ photoshoot? Dopeness. His Calvin Klein ads? AMAZING! *phew*
ReplyDeleteI agree with you, Trey-- I don't think one "slip up" is immediate grounds for a Break up. But with all the Remorse in the world, if he just continued and continued to cheat on me, then that's when we'll have to break up.
My question to you is: how do you think your dad would react if you came out to him?
I can speak from personal experience that as bad as it may hurt, it's best they be told before they have to find out on their own about it...
--Cogito
@UrSoVain: I feel you. I'm referring to the idea that everyone deserves to be forgiven once. Now, if it continues than we have to call it quits. Repeated disrespect can't be tolerated. And I know all to well about the wondering who is on the phone situation.
ReplyDelete@Cogito: That's my point exactly. Shit happens. We may be pissed off and bitter, but any relationship worth having is worth fighting for ay least once. Now you keep fucking around, we talkin it quits
(P.S- Leave Mehcad alone....Idris is at home waiting on you. Lol)
For me fidelity is not the most important thing, I dont mind my partner having sex with others (from time to time)if that is what he wants or needs. If relationships works, if there is sexual and emotional and intelectual conection, and most of all honesty and trust, then that is more than i can excpect. Other thing is if he doesnt feel satisfied with me, and "has to" fuck around cause of this, then no point in being together ...
ReplyDeleteLmao! Man... Idris made Daddy's Little Girls into a soft-core porn flick to me...
ReplyDelete--COgito
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