A Date?

Tonight I went on a sorta-kinda date with D-Boy.  Of course I had to put my pride aside to let it all happen.  This was one of my few days off work during the week and he wanted to take me out.  Because of shit that had went down in the past I quickly agreed.   Sometimes the whole going out with some dude thing makes me uncomfortable. But I said, fuck it.

Before I get into tonight, let me tell you about what happened in the past the last time. Me and D had planned to go out to this sushi bar to eat and have a few drinks. He offered to drive and come pick me up, and I said I would just meet him there. (Strike one) Then, once the bill came, he tried to pay for all of it and I wouldn't let him. (Strike 2 and 3) Little did I know that shit offended him.  Cause when we got outside he told me to come to his truck and get in.  And that nigga let me have it!!! LoL And not in a good way ;).  He just sat there, looked up and took a deep breath then laid into me "Why the fuck won't you just let me do for you?  What is yo damn problem. I'm trying to be the man and shit and you won't let me. Whats up with that?"  Now imagine this being said in a holler and the muhfucka screaming being 6'5. My black ass was speechless....yeah, ME, speechless. I acted like I didn't know what he was talking about and quickly got my ass to my own car.  He didn't talk to me for a few weeks after that. (Can't blame him. LoL) I have this thing with a guy thinking I'm the "girl" in the relationship.  You fucking me doesn't make me a bitch, or your bitch.  And a dude picking me up, paying for my meal and shit makes me uncomfortable.  I'm a grown ass man, I takes care of mines well.  And it hard to relinquish that control to somebody, another man more specifically.

Tonight however I took a big dose of fuck it and let it happen.  I drove my car to his place and rode with him to this italian restaurant that he picked for us to go to. (Which was hella good by the way). And I could immediately tell that he liked how I let him take a lil control. And to be quite honest, it felt kinda good to me as well. Eventhough being seen as the "girl" bothers me, I like for the guy I'm with to be a little more dominate, I like to be held, and I like to feel safe with him. (Damn that sounds gay. LMAO!  But true) Once we ordered, the waiter (this muhfucka here....tell ya'll later) asked if it was together. D hesitated at first but he read my face and said "It's together".  Once the meal was over he paid without me resisting and the biggest smile came across his face.  On the way back to his place we talked about how this time was different and then he said something thats kind of fucking with me "Thanks for actually letting me act like yo man without tripping".  My man?  First off that shit doesn't sound right to me for some reason. Secondly, I'm not sure what he thinks this means now.  Are we supposedly together now or something.  Cause if so, I didn't know nor did I agree to that shit.  Maybe I'm reading too much into it. I don't know.  I never claimed to be an Einstein when it comes to love and relationships. 

But what I am indeed sure about is that bomb ass dick that muhfucka just got done laying.  Damn.  I need to let that dude be "my man" more often.  I mean, dude kissed and licked all over my body, ate my ass for what seemed like hours and was long dicking your boy.  And the shit lasted soooo long.  Talk about wore out...but in a good way.   He had my favorite music playing.  Man, I think that was love making...not fucking.  I'm waiting for him to come back from taking his boy to work.  Let's hope there is a round two when he gets back. LoL