Celibate Chronicles: Trey Ain't Getting None- Part 4

So first off, this is some bullshit.  I'm horny, frustrated, have and attitude, and I think I'm gonna end up hurting somebody if I don't get some sex soon.  I really think that this upcoming weekend somebody is gonna get the fuck of their life.  Me and the porn site Papithugz are becoming best friends, and that shit can't be healthy.  My dick can't take it any more. LoL

Not having to deal with sex and dick, and the muhfuckas who supply it, has given me time to think about some shit, and face some shit. My nosey ass aunt always asks everybody the same ole shit.  While, at a party at another family member's house she asked me "So when you gonna start bringing your girlfriends around?"  That question has always bothered me because I am not ready to be honest with everybody around me.  I'm honest enough with myself and I think that's the most important thing at this point. I have a auto answer for the dreaded "girlfriend" question.  I simply say "I don't see the need to bring around every girl I date if I'm not serious with her. You'll meet the one I decide to settle down with maybe"....or something to that effect.

However, the innate smart ass in me wanted to tell me aunt- "Naw, I don't have a girlfriend but unlike you I have a few men trying to get at me".  But that wouldn't be right. I have been kinda snappy, and sometimes down right rude when asked that question.  Sometimes I just get aggressive on the subject for no reason at all, and its not fair that I project my own inner turmoils to other people. I think my biggest problem is the lack of gay/bi/dl or whateva the fuck you call it friends. I have to keep all this shit to myself.  I don't think you guys know how fucking therapeutic it is to be writing this shit.

P.S- I need to find someone to fulfill that fantasy with the smoking.